A call to action - NOW!

Over two weeks ago now, Xenophobic attacks. Started in South Africa (xenophobia = an unreasonable fear or hatred of foreigners or strangers or of that which is foreign or strange.)

Due to all the natural disaters that have happened in China and Berma these attacks have been slightly underlooked by the 1st world.However to me this is as real as anything, although I'm no longer living in South Africa many loved ones are, and many loved ones are living right in the townships where this cruel and inhumane acts are taking place.

My call to you today is not to feel guilty about sitting and living comfortable lives, because don't we all, and blessed we are, but my call to you is that your heart is moved and that you will PLEASE pray. Don't stop praying until this is over, this cannot and will not stop until the situation is completely put into Jesus' hands.

The truth is this attacks have started because people are starving, what's happening is that the goverment in south africa is letting alot of foreginers into the country due to the many problems within Zimbabwe and surrounding countries, and people are flocking into South Africa.South Africa if you don't already know is riddled with povery and extreme amounts of money. White people live in near enough mansions and black people live in carboard boxes, maybe a tin hut and if you're really lucky a shed not adaqute to put our tools in, and if they have been blessed with the money then a little house. The problem is there is extremes, MONEY and POVERTY nothing in between. The South African's that live in the townships have had enough of the foreginers coming into there land and taking there jobs, and are taking action about it, are the result are these attacks, and they way it happens is by "necklacing" people, putting a burning tire full of oil around someones neck and waiting for it to burn them to death.

I'm sorry if you're reading this and are horrifed, but I think it's time we got a wake up call to the states people have to live in, maybe it will move us enouh to pray for them.

Many churches in South Africa are creating escape places for refugees, they are hosting them within there church buildings and halls, In Hout Bay (where I used to live) and the church I used to attend called Hout Bay Church International (HBCI - an NCMI church) are providing accomodation for more than 200 people, and it's just not accomodation it's food, and nappies, and all the things 100's of baby's need. (the 200 people is excluding children)By the church helping these people they are too putting there lives on the line, they are exercising faith, trusting that God will protect them and laying their lives on the line for there brothers and sisters.PLEASE pray for the protection of all the leaders and volunteers of the churches that have pulled together in the communitys to help here brothers and sisters.

PLEASE pray for the foreigners who have NOwhere to go, everywhere is dangerous for them at the moment. and all the other people living in South Africa, no where is really safe at the moment.most of ALL PLEASE pray for the people who are commiting these acts, may God soften there hearts, may they seek forgivness, may Jesus become there provider.

This was only ment to be short, i do apologize, but please do pray.

Isaiah 61:

The spirit of the sovereign Lord is on me,because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted,to proclaim freedom for the captivesand release from the darkness for the prisoners.

Thank you

Sunday 20th of April

Sunday night
There are no words that actually describe what happened and that is the truth of it.
All through Sunday God was calling me to come and "Be" with him, however you know times are busy and I found excuses. In the evening Naomi and Chrissy came over, and this urge was so strong I wasn't able to ignore it anymore. The rain was pouring down outside and it was dark and cold.. and I asked them if they felt like coming to the woods with me because I felt God wanted to say something. and AMAZING friends that they are, agreed and we got our wellies on and drove to the woods. Expectant upon God.
We arrived at the dark, wet woods.. and ventured inside. We didn't go in too far, enough so that we were completely surrounded by trees but could see the path way out.
We started by getting right with God and talking about things that had been going within us and around us over the last couple of days/weeks.
I can't really describe how it all went from there, but its true to say, Jesus was returning to us the "Joy of his salvation" (psalm 51) we were laughing, jumping, clapping, singing, crying, in complete awe. There was three girls in the woods late on a Sunday night, all dancing round a big tree.
This explains what God was doing:
Like a child I will dance in your presence
Oh let the joy of heaven fall down on me
I still remember the first time I met you
and I don't ever want to loose that fire
FIRST LOVE.
We got our first flame back for Jesus.
Things quietened down a little, and one of the girlies felt that we were going to see an angel. This became really exciting, until nothing turned up. I then realised that we were in JESUS' presence, an angel is lower than him. we were walking and dancing, clapping, singing with Jesus. RIGHT THERE. we had put far to much worth into seeing the angel. and we refocused our eyes on Jesus.
As we did so, there were angels there anyway. you could feel them all around you, a mist had settled in the woods and not everywhere just in this particular place. Jesus was there.
We felt like we were in the garden of Eden, God, Man and creation. Nothing else.
It's hard to explain something like this because it is completely unfathamoable. there aren't words that could even midly explain what we felt.
all I can say is that, we really had a true glimipse of heaven. a true glimpse of home.
There is so much more I could say about this, but im realising it really isn't going to do any justice.

Why?

Today I spoke to a great friend of mine, She's very wonderful and you are blessed if you know her, But I was saddened by our conversation. This was the mail I received with the news:

"his name is Chris, he's about 27ish, he has 2 brain tumors and it has all gotten quite bad recently. On Friday he was taken into hospital because he suddenly got really ill. They found out that the cancer has spread to his bone marrow and so they got it tested to see how bad it was. The doctors thought he was getting better on the weekend but he has still been getting even worse and they found out from the tests that it's spread too much for them to help anymore so they've transferred him to a better hospital but will no longer be treating him. The doctors don't think he will be able to last much longer."

My cry is for a change. that is all.

Please, please, wherever you are. Pray.

unsettled

I've been thinking recently about September really not being far away, and that when September comes I'll be jetting off on a plane to the other side of the world to South Africa.

Today I've been feeling quite scared about going, however there isn't a doubt in my mind that I'll go. I know I'm going, and that I do need to go. How long I'll go for is yet to be determined, but there is no reason to set that in stone yet anyway.
However just whilst I put my Windows media player on random I have just been sitting in my room doing some work, and this song came one, I'm not sure where this song is from but its called "Set The World On Fire" by Britt Nicole. These are the lyrics :

I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for you
It's everything that i desire
Can I be the one you use?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with you
Nothing I can't do
Nothing I cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father's hand.

Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with you
Nothing I can't do
Nothing I cannot do

My hands my feet
My everything
My life, My love.
Lord, Use me

I wanna set the world on fire.
I wanna set the world on fire

Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with you
Nothing I can't do
Nothing I cannot do

I'm gonna set the world on fire
Gonna set the world on fire.

This was the best thing I could have heard at this time, at this time of feeling unsettled knowing I'm going out into the unknown on my own, without the comfort of having my own home, or having my mummy or Daddy about or being able to pop to Scotland to see my brother or run down stairs and see my sister.. but with my Lord there is NOTHING I cannot do, and realising that I am actually not going into the unknown alone, i have the best person walking next to me. holding my hand every step of the way.

I have had this unsettled feeling going on inside of the me since late January, I think it first came about because I spend eight amazing weeks with my best friend from South Africa and when she returned home it left me a little lost of where I was. I was missing South Africa but not knowing where I was meant to be, I knew that when I went to Cape Town I'd miss England, I couldn't win. And then I remembered that this is my temporary home, this world is temporary, so I won't ever be settled because I'm not staying here. This unsettled feeling is not the missing of South Africa or the missing of England when I'm away from it, but from wanting to make Heaven my dwelling my place. And when Heaven is my dwelling then my friends that is when I shall be settled. That is when I shall be Home.
These years of my life are just my Journey Home.

I can't resist this love inside

I wrote a new song today called "I can't resist this love inside"

These are the lyrics

Another day without is impossible
with out you its so easy to slip away
Tell me what more can I do?
telling you just isn't enough
its the way I live that shows you that my love is real, my love is real.

I don't know why I can't resist this love inside
I can't resist this love inside

Take hold and don't let go
Let your heart be free
There you will find
we're always meant to be, we're always meant to be.

Lord turn my wrong to right please
that's what I'm praying
show me your love tonight
hear what I'm saying

I don't know why I can't resist this love inside
I can't resist this love inside

Take hold and don't let go
Let your heart be free
There you will find
we're always meant to be, we're always meant to be.

I found out what it takes to heal this heart of mine
is your loving embrace I feel,
Time after time.

Take Hold and don't let go
Let your heart be free
There you will find
We're always meant to be, we're always meant to be.

This song is something that has a lot of different things going on in it, but it really explained a lot of things of where I'm at.
I needed to write a song that was going to give hope, a song that was saying " Take hold and don't let go" telling people to just keep holding onto God, and when we reach him which we always can our hearts are free. In him we are free. and that it was incorporating my last post about being, and how that when we reach that place of being we find it's where we are always meant to be.

It's hard to explain exactly where this came from, considering it was written about a lot of different things with a lot of different emotions going through my head.
I hope to have the song recorded properly as soon as possible!

learning to be.

Today I started to learn an invaluable lesson, that which is Learning To Be. Learning that being in God's presence is enough, that's all he asks for me, that I may be still and know that he is God. And that i don't need to run myself dry trying to impress him, or anyone else for that matter, but learn to be. learn to be in his presence, be still, find him in the whisper.
God taught this to a friend who then taught me.

On last Saturday, two of my girlie friends had slept over, Naomi and Chrissy. We had done some amazing releasing of things on Friday night and spent some quality time with God and also had a lot of giggles, which included putting ridiculous make-up on each other and pulling silly faces for the camera. After getting to bed rather later, we woke up quite late the next morning and due to that I thought we'll have bacon rolls because it was more brunch time then breakfast. Due to eating the bacon rolls Chrissy had got some bacon stuck in her tooth and so asked me if I had any dental floss, my reply was it's in the bathroom downstairs (however if I was a good host I would have got it for her!) and Chrissy walked out my room, and the next thing i hear is a bang so i run out my room which is at the top of the stairs to find Chrissy falling down the stairs, whilst tryingt to grab on the rough beams on the side. When Chrissy finally reached the bottom, which seemed like hours later, I could see from the top of the stairs there was blood on her hands, and anyone who knows me, knows that me and blood don't go well together! I called Nay and realised Chrissy wasn't responding to me and needed me, with or without blood. I ran (carefully!) to the bottom of the stairs, to find she was half in reality half out of it, what does chartiy do in these circumstances she panics!! I ran to my mummy who then came to Chrissy.
To cut this part of the story a little shorter we phoned the ambulance and that resulted in Chrissy, Nay and myself spending over four hours in the hospital by Chrissy's side.
Chrissy has a track record of bad back problems, three herneated discs to be spercific and since then has been in a lot of pain which has resulted in her having to lie flat on her back. (getting to my point now..) The last five day's chrissy has been lying flat, trying to work out what to do with herself. And it dauned on her, God just so wanted to spend time with her, with her just being, so much that he needed to let her fall down the stairs in order for her to have to spend time with him.
she felt him in a totally new way today, in a way that was washing over her. She looked so beautiful today, not because of hair, make-up or clothes, but so stunning when she described her new encounter with God.
She learnt to be.