Do you ever have times where things just hurt?
You understand them.
You can explain them.
You know someone is in control. You trust that someone.
Yet it still hurts?
Yet you know it needs to happen, yet you still don't want it to?
The heart hurts at the moment.
People have left. Forever. People are leaving, people are choosing to leave, choosing to walk away. People are having to leave, and some people don't even realize that they're leaving you. They ALL hurt. I don't think you could define one as hurting 'more' they all sting, they all leave you saying ouch, they all leave your heart hurting.
God although my heart is sore, although it's torn, although it's broken. I'll praise you anyway, no matter who leaves, you're still God. You're still here. You won't leave.
I still believe you're there,but at times, I wonder if you remember me. If you remember that I'm still here. I'll still praising you anyway.
Isaiah 49. 15 - 16
' Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!
See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me. '
You haven't and won't forget me Lord.
Lord I believe, but help me in my unbelief.